what's wrong

i'm so tired...
this euro planning is quite tough after all...looking for addresses...booking...
the timing is hard to get right. hope things go well...but if not the schedule is definitely flexible.

sigh...things in the back of my head are driving me crazy.

i can't sleep, i feel so restless so unresolved.

2 days left to go? i feel unready.
i need more time to think and reflect.
errr...i'm going to sleep now....man...it's 3:20...why am i still up...
restless and unresolved.
auuuuuuuugh.
somebody just knock me out.

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8 hours after.

i had went through the toughest night yet.
tears till i fell asleep.
i thought these things only happen in movies or on tv.
not to me.
i felt unreal.
yet i couldn't stop.
i probably fell asleep at 5am
the latest this year and i don't even have school.
how much longer i can go on.
through this supposed times of happiness of finishing school
and going on a trip.

'i hear your voice on the line,
but it doesn't stop the pain.'

need some peace

help me stop these tears
they fall like the rain we've been having