scramble

feeling mighty pressured and stressed right now...
with one more month of school left
i have still yet to shift into a higher gear
don't know what's gotten into me this term
there's been too much work and rework

my brain's a mess
and i don't know which course to handle first...
because they're all scrambled

it's that time again...
to sleep and just forget about it...
it will have to do for now...
until i figure out some better way...

wave

maybe if i sleep now the day will be over
and perhaps i can pretend things didn’t happen
i am reminded to spend time praying
and to find true rest in my soul

for
waves that have come crashing
reminded me how insufficient i am
waves that wouldn’t give a second thought
of what is being crushed underneath

‘all your waves and breakers have swept over me.’ psalm 42:7

they are his waves
whether they break over us
hiding his face in smothering spray and foam
or smooth and sparkling
spread a path before us
and to our haven bear us safely home

they are his waves
whether for our sure comfort
he walks across them
stilling all our fear
or to our cry there comes no aid nor answer
and in the lonely silence none is near

they are his waves
whether we are hard striving
through tempest driven waves that never cease
while deep to deep with turmoil loud is calling
or at his word they hush themselves in peace

they are his waves
whether he separates them
making us walk dry ground where seas had flowed
or lets tumultuous breakers surge about us
rushing unchecked across our only road

they are his waves
and he directs us through them
so he has promised
so his love will do
keeping and leading
guiding and upholding
to his sure harbour
he will bring us through

bish

52 d k m

i'm getting used to not doing any school work
it's overated anyways
i feel i care less about school
grades especially...
too much school for one year

this is what i'm listening to
http://somafm.com/
'tag's trance trip'
to get myself on top of things...
it's working

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i have plenty of things to catch up on...
#1 is sleep
i was doing so well
until procrastination caught on again

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remembering the smoked salmon...
lamb chops...
cake...cake...
bish bish...

need to win another...

mr pig

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coffee influence
lack of sleep
self inflicted
deadline tomorrow

paranoia.

live up to a name that is created

cloud 10

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who works on cloud 9 anyways...
definitely not me

want to work...
very tired...
yawn instead
deadlines...deadlines
draw lines...draw lines...

feeling great joy
reminds me
how much pain and suffering it took
to achieve it

you want greater joy?
well then...
you must first decide to suffer greater pain

is it worth it?
it most definitely is.
bring it on.

1 cloud ahead.

dkm | 52

CONGRADULATIONS DKM | 52

we made it!

whoooohooooooooooooooooooooooo!

flash

a week flashes before my eyes
and it's time to quickly...
or very very slowly...
catch up on the work i've left behind

at this moment i'm really enjoying home
with my huge books around me
places to sketch, read, compute
multiple projects spread out
all on the same desk
lots of natural light

knowing that dinner will be cooked for me
it's me and my grandpa home right now
so i can play my music loud
he's upstairs
i'm downstairs
they all will be home soon enough...

it was snowing just a couple minutes ago
now it's sunny
though still freezing outside

off to montreal tomorrow
then to halifax sunday
and then
the fun begins...

catching up on all the school i missed...
arrrrrrrrrr...

haha...
i shouldn't ruin this peaceful moment.

rise again

when i am down
and all my soul so weary
when troubles come
and my heart burden be
then i am still and wait here in the silience
until you come
and sit a while with me

you raise me up
so i can stand on mountains
you raise me up
to walk on stormy seas

i am strong
when i am on your shoulders
you raise me up
to more than i can be

never whole

think.
breathe.
cry.

why do you not want me to be who i am.

cry.
breathe.
think.

change me to be a better person.

think.
breathe.
cry.

i can't pick up the shattered pieces.

cry.
breathe.
think.

i only have one pair of hands.

think.
breathe.
cry.

i never was whole to begin with.

why did i get my answer so soon.
a fire has been lit.
in this i shall burn.
i shall continue to be hurt.

i won't be afraid.

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o...
the scrapbook you made for me.
today i have made great use of it.

with that first picture being the one in the post
when i am feeling
stressed
sad
lonely
discouraged
home sick
overwhelmed

it has reminded me to keep these in mind...

how far i am willing to walk

when it gets really windy...to hang on tight
the storm will soon pass

too keep dancing
to keep fighting
there's always another way
think outside the box
to eat
to drink
and be merry
someone's load could be bigger than mine
that i have been through a lot worse

that i shouldn't give in to stereotypes
to remember my dreams

to keep on climbing..
don't give up
get lots of rest
don't be afraid to ask for a helping hand
to take a walk on the beach as the sun is setting

home is not that far away

each step you take forwards
brings you closer to the end

to pray

how happy i've made people

happieness is not that far behind

remember all those who support you
and this is the moment where
i could no longer see my screen

remember my accomplishments
remember
there are lessons to be learned
in every challenge
in every experience
never stop learning

remember how happy you were in the end
it will all be worth it one day

thanks o...
i will always keep this gift with me.
it has made me remember...
a much appreciated thanks.

shine more

today is a major day of procrastination
took a nap...
and yes...
it's not like me to take naps...
nor is it like me to skip class for a week...

i'll be leaving again coming saturday
to toronto then to montreal
for a week
which means skipping class

i don't know where i'm finding my inspiration anymore
definitely isn't coming from school...
unmotivated...uninspired...

i have an interview tomorrow in toronto.
i'm unsure where i can go coming january
for my work terms

i'm in a term of self improvement

come on...bring something of a higher level to the table.

'it was good for me to be afflicted' psalm 119:71

it is a remarkable occurance of nature
that the most brilliant colours of plants
are found on the highest mountains
in places that are most exposed to the fiercest weather

the brightest lichens and mosses
as well as the most beautiful wildflowers
abound high upon the windswept storm ravaged peaks

already knowing where these passages are taking me...
i wondered where do i need more qualifying...
in what aspect do i still need to burn
how can i become brighter
i don't know what fires are up ahead
i only hope that i can remember
that after the fire
i will only shine more.

stay true to yourself.
and follow where your heart leads.