need direction

what's been going on today?

i had my last exam of my bachelor's degree...it didn't go so well...
as expected when i knew i didn't study enough.
rather than study on the subway, i fell asleep.

what do i have planned for the coming year?

i hear of people getting married, moving away, having a full-time job, going to masters.

i'm going to call this year my co-op year.
i wonder what's going to happen, so many things up in the air.

i never really thought of this day, the next day.

again, i got reminded my ambition is not that high,
maybe i don't try hard enough, maybe i don't put enough effort into some things that i should.

but i think i try very hard, i put very much effort.
it is only after the fact, i realize that maybe i didn't.