bogged down

what is it with me?

things that can't be had?

why can't things be now. now now now.

thoughts swirling around in my head...sucks

definitely blocking out thesis

just let it be over...now now now.

i can't stand it no more.

fighting against. i don't know. i don't know.

yet another dark month...
when will i be satisfied?

when will things go my way?

why hasn't anything gone my way recently?

but then again what is my way? what i want?

what have i become? is this what you want? what i want?

have i taken a turn for the worse? for i can't see further.

i've got a lot to pray about.

lead me. direct me. give me the strength.
mold me. make me. into what You want.