half and half

i ran straight into a very awkward moment at the end of a party.
i don't think i'll ever learn how to or understand how to do this.
or to do it at all ever again.
i'm sure many people have ran into this before.
you've either borrowed or lent out money.
so i spent some money for the entire group for the project. it's not like a tiny amount, substantial i guess.
and i asked for the money back from a couple people who didn't remember at all.
first time, 'don't have enough money'
twice, 'okay i'll bring it the next time i see you'
so i was hoping it would be remembered.
nope.
forgot.
anyways
the third time, still forgot about it but managed to borrow from others to pay me back...
making me feel strange
thinking that i am doing something wrong.
am i?

anyways...
fun day.
it felt like i mailed my child away today. my application to mcgill. it was not the fun part of the day. working on that portfolio for so long made me very attached to it. i didn't want to send it. so what if only one ryerson student has been accepted into mcgill's architecture masters program in ten years. so? haha...
anyways. i'm prepared for rejection. i am.
watched supersize me
and sang some k
and ate some dessert.