not the same

if my mind wasn't messed enough...
i forgot to turn my phone back on last night
and i was waiting for my mentor to call me
whoops...
but i got her message in the morning and gave her a call
she said everything went really well...
then she gave me a surprise (not that kind)

augh

if my mind isn't messed enough

you're leaving too?
maybe i never believed that it would come true
and now you make it sound so forthcoming

what will become of us when you're not here?
i don't want to think of it
i know already that we will not be the same

i will miss the laughs, the sudden outbursts
the big and thoughtful heart
one who i've seen change over so many years
so many years

i don't know if i'll be prepared for the day

teary eyed in the office...