right?

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when nobody can hear
what this heart screams

an overflow of questions
leads me
to the question of who i am
and if i am a person
who has the capability
to negativly influence others

without a doubt
i have this capablity
we all do

then comes into question
what is negative?
that is subjective

the title
life isn't easy
but learn to enjoy and love

i'm learning the first part of that title
more and more every day

then...
what is love?
and am i even capable to exhibit this
even once a day?

is there much good left in this world?
i believe that i am not one to perpetuate the notion
that there isn't

questioned to be fundamentally incorrect
yet i cannot find it in me
to understand that i am
only i have been seeing through these eyes
only i have been hearing through these ears

notice all the i's
and me's
the selfishness of my thought

ongoing...
the thought
if i'm right
and you're wrong
or
you're right
and i'm wrong
is there no in between?
and is there cause to immediately reject...
ah...the complexities...
do you sit and listen
or do you ache to interrupt with what you believe is right?
do you try to convince because that is assertive
or do you try to convince because you believe
and do you still try to convince
when you know
it would be clash and conflict?

and harsh to ever say
i'm right
you're wrong
nobody likes the latter part
because that is insulting
to however many years of existence
that it has taken to finalize this conclusion

i would be the most naive...
only because i know
that knowing less is always better
yet we always strive to know and learn more

no conclusions have been made
yet many questions have arrived
my innermost intention is not to light a fire
and the chinese saying goes
paper cannot cover a fire

my innermost intention questions
whether one is capable of living
in acceptance to what one believes is fundamentally wrong
and how much it takes to
really live in acceptance
to what one believes is fundamentally wrong

i hope that you believe in me...
i believe in you.
there is a yet...
but if there is acceptance
the yet disappears...
and i hope that i am not a
negative influence on you

all this hope...
left to be realized...
i'm sitting on the edge here...

i'm thankful i get the time
to ponder and talk about these questions

because believe me
haha...
i'm not always right.
just kidding...
i always am.