letter

i know somebody who works with kids that have cancer
someone sent him this

'sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon
come out of the operating room.
she said how is my little boy?
is he going to be all right?
when can i see him?"

the surgeon said
i'm sorry
we did all we could
but your boy didn't make it

sally said, why do little children get cancer?
doesn't god care any more?
where were you god
when my son needed you?

the surgeon asked
would you like some time alone with your son?
one of the nurses will be out in a few minutes
before he's transported to the university

sally asked the nurse to stay with her while
she said good-bye to her son
she ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair.
would you like a lock of his hair?
the nurse asked
sally nodded yes

the nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair
put it in a plastic bag and handed it to sally
the mother said
it was jimmy's idea to donate his body
to the university for study
he said it might help somebody else
i said no at first, but jimmy said
mom, i won't be using it after i die
maybe it will help some other little boy
spend one more day with his mom

my jimmy had a heart of gold
always thinking of someone else
always wanting to help others if he could
sally walked out of children's mercy hospital
for the last time
after spending most of the last six months there
she put the bag with jimmy's
belongings on the seat beside her in the car
the drive home was difficult

it was even harder to enter the empty house
she carried jimmy's belongings
and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room
she started placing the model cars
and other personal things back in
his room exactly where he had always kept them
she lay down across his bed and
hugging his pillow
cried herself to sleep

it was around midnight when sally awoke
laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter
the letter said:

dear mom, i know you're going to miss me
but don't think that i will ever forget you
or stop loving you
just because i'm not around to say i love you
i will always love you mom
even more with each day

someday we will see each other again
until then
if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely
that's okay with me
he can have my room and old stuff to play with
but if you decide to get a girl instead
she probably wouldn't like the same things
you'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like

don't be sad thinking about me
this really is a neat place
grandma and grandpa met me
as soon as i got here and showed me around
but it will take a long time to see everything
the angels are so cool
i love to watch them fly
and, you know what?
jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures
yet, when i saw him
i knew it was him
jesus himself took me to see god

and guess what, mom?
i got to sit on god's knee and talk to him
like i was somebody important
that's when i told him
that i wanted to write you a letter
to tell you good-bye and everything

but i already knew that wasn't allowed
well, you know what mom?
god handed me some paper
and his own personal pen to write you this letter

gabriel is the name of the angel
who is going to drop this letter off to you
god said for me to give you the answer
to one of the questions you asked him
where was he when i needed him?
god said he was in the same place with me
as when his son jesus was on the cross

he was right there
as he always is with all his children
by the way, mom, no one else
can see what i've written except you
to everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper
i have to give god his pen back now
he needs it to write some more names
in the book of life
tonight i get to sit
at the table with Jesus for supper
i'm, sure the food will be great

i almost forgot to tell you
i don't hurt anymore
the cancer is all gone

i'm glad because i couldn't stand that pain anymore
and god couldn't stand to see me hurt so much either
that's when he sent the Angel to come get me

signed with love from: god, jesus & me'