the humanist in me

watching the series china rises on cbc newsworld
i'm inspired
then again
as i watch the dispair of the millions
if not billions of people
going hungry
while i sit here eating
as i just peeked in my bowl
to see the uneaten rice
i cannot but feel the need to do something
uneasy and puzzled by what i see
i sit here to watch others
who dedicate their lives to making
other lives just that much better

makes what i'm doing now
seem nothing but frivolous

reading about humanism
watching humanism
and then writing humanism
i believe there exists a humanist in me
looking for others

yet not knowing how
or maybe it isn't not knowing how
maybe it's the conflict of a mindset
i have one thing i need to do
but it would mean i need
to leave the other behind

somehow i wish it was easy
to leave the other behind
then i would just go
and do what needs to be done

fortunate to even care
about so many other things
than going hungry

just mind boggling
and i need to do something about it
whether it be soon or in years
but i will.