don't remember the last time i was working so hard
submitted another application yesterday
and after every submission
i go through a low
afraid of being judged and criticized on something
i put so much energy and effort into
wondering what will happen
wondering if it's worth all the running around
waking early in the morning
rushing in and out of the office to do personal things
thankfully my boss is great about it
we have so many projects going on
much more than our office can handle
many of them are running on low heat on the backburner
if i was the client
i'd be much more demanding
'what are you doing with my project?'
'when will it be done?'
it's been 3 months since i last heard of a project
2 months since i've heard of another
and weeks of nothing done for another project
and of course, we focus more time on the ones that cost more
free at last
days which i can do whatever i want after work
don't think it will last
i'd like to bring work home to do
only if it's design related
so that we can get things done around the office
and not delay everything
