the unexpected

condensed words more impact?
sure...for now

until i can garner up time
to barf out what i have to write.

at this moment
i feel immense pressure
from many sides of life
remembering the juggling analogy
i read before

in my mind
one too many glass pieces in air

first couple of white hairs on my head
reasons can be applied.

mind so compressed.
need to release air valve.

hoping it would get better tonight
yet expectations lead
to dangerous outcomes
of unfufillment

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comes once in a while
good intentions
retured in thrashings

all work put into the publication
gets retured in
i'm not happy you didn't ask my approval
glad roomate is completely on my side
somebody on my side
we fired emails back
and this is extremely damaging on ourselves
and on our own concious
trampled too much already
trampled by one who has been MIA
for 4 months even worse
now with his fingers pointing at us
not getting his approval

when we reply
had to make clear
put all the effort
returned nothing but slack

gave some slack back
maybe not slack
but entire clarification
and an understanding of who shouldn't
be pointing a finger

i wonder the response.
he definitely would have expected that

not in me to be the
one ticked

the unexpected leads to...
where it has led me now

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great theatre ideas
keep pushing and pursuing