diluted

spread too thin
weak at the knees
weak in spirit
i miss days that have passed
some days i just want to go back
sometimes i want to move forward

i admire your optimism
in so many situations
where i know i would fail

working so hard
i know
stay strong
stay focused
spare some time to reflect and think
reflect on the things you've accomplished
think about those who care
and fall asleep in peace
lean on me when you need
if i am not around
remember not to be afraid
because i will be soon enough

time is filling up too fast
too soon

where is the time to work on my portfolio
to apply for work in january
do i use each spare moment i have?
do i spare days for it?
i need more spare moments
to rest my eyes
to rest my mind
to rest.

i need to stop running around.
i need time to be free.
to think about nothing.
and to simply stop scheduling
and spreading myself more.

23 fast approaching 24
thinking about last year...
i vaguely remember what happened last year
the more i think about it...
the more i remember...
another year eh...
no more 23
what a year i've been blessed with

coming back home
to things that have changed without me
because people will always move forward
because time still continues...
what can i do
i want to move forward with those
who mean something to me.

spread too thin
like peanut butter on bread.
like over diluted coffee.
the taste is there...
but it's just not that good.
ya know?
i know it very well right now.