light and dark

revelation from devotion.

'I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. in this world you will have trouble. but take heart, I have overcome the world.' John 16:33

blessings cannot be appreciated if there is no trouble.
can't appreciate light without being in the dark.
when everything that can go wrong, does, God is there
will he reach down and pick us up out of the muck and mire?
not always,
but he did promise to be in the muck and mire with us
and guide us through until we have a solid footing.

life is bad.
God is there.
Life is good.
God is there.

i'm out of the muck.

at last

true tears came to my eyes.
real...needed...long overdue...tears.
i'm glad they did...

would this be my healing rain?

when i looked upon my own words,
'Lord don't let me go'
i just couldn't help myself.

there's hope beyond the struggle
you were trying to be so strong
you've been waiting for so long
the miricle would never come
heaven's holding every tear you cry
just hold on.

i'm trying ever so hard to...cheer up

don't let me go

you painted me a picture of tomorrow
a world without dispare and shadows
i believe that there is somewhere
where the angels fill the sky
and i believe we'll live forever

you painted me a picture of believing.

in need of healing rain,
to sooth the pain,

Lord don't let me go.
you have carried me in my time of need.

its been fine

lately i dove into myself again, thinking, what's going on?
reflecting upon what's happening around me. what i'm doing, what i'm not doing. day in, day out.
in the song it goes, 'i've sat in this seat for hours' but i'm not reading my book, i'm reading my lifestory.
the day ended well yesterday although being quite blue in its entirety.
but then again, it stirred up apprehension.

aside from that
i was asked my chinese name yesterday...haha...and i'm being called leon once again, brings back memories...to go back in time...where everything can be simple.

wherever we turn, wherever we face, i hope fond memories stir.
reminding us of lasting moments.

to meet you

how about some nice lyrics...

it's five miles till i see my lover
i guess you could say that she's more than that
i've been sat in this seat now for hours
reading my book like a map
yeah these windows are crying
and this train is dying
to meet you

this train is filled with emotions
they all make me think about you
when we pass these old desert stations
i want to go there with you
it's four miles and counting
and my hands are shouting to meet you
to meet you is fine
for i know you're all mine
waiting is nice, i can think of her eyes
these tracks can lead
just to one place
and your face
that i kiss and embrace when i meet you
i'm wondering if you will ever come with me
and we can play husband and wife
we could waltz around this globe and its mystery
then rest till the end of our lives
yeah its 2 miles and closing
and i'm overdosing on you

yeah these windows are crying
and this train is dying to meet you

lyrics by teitur

another day

i haven't much to reflect on these days.

drifting off

so...this is the year i graduate.
i'm having this feeling that i don't want to go to school again, or start work.
what other options are there? is that it?
maybe just do nothing and waste away...although that doesn't sound too enticing either.
i'd like to travel somewhere for a while...see the world. that would be nice.
just to get away from this all too familiar canadian landscape of suburban housing polluting the ever flat landscape.

contemplating other options.
or just dreaming of.

the last child

the colour and format of this blog looks almost exaclty like my portfolio, sad that i just notice and except that the portfolio has more pictures than words, but the green is a perfect match. i've just finished my final application package and ready to send it off. no longer is it in my hands.

finally i can focus on other things and stop working on the portfolio which can only get better. i had a great time making it and putting it together, and i learned much more from others in the process.

plenty to do tonite...to show profs process tomoro.

i need some time to just stop to reflect on what i'm doing.

i found out that when i'm not physically in front of my computer, i can come up with many ideas and i can plan out my schedule strategically. away from the computer and tv definitely helps in gathering thoughts.

preparing for

the weekend quickly wraps up as i rush to prepare for my busiest day of the week. monday.
i've been pushing thesis back everyday, until now. once i started...these ideas kept flowing out onto paper. i think it's because i took a nap today...haha...a rare occurance. i'm prepared for a plethora of reconstruction.

looking forward to...
winterlicious
keane concert
walking outside in the summer with the sun shining while eating ice cream

introspection

i engaged in an hour long editing session today of my statement of interest and biographical statement. the three words that were used to better my writings include: introspection, refocusing, and consistency.
i think i've lost my knack for writing as a means of expression. i forgotten many of the basic principles of writing a good paper. i'm glad somebody finally pointed it out to me. the hour session of pointing out my problems with writing will definitely benefit me for many days to come.

through this period of introspective thinking, my main question will be why do i like architecture? what is it that makes me unique in the field? how will i contribute?
these difficult questions that require me to dig deep.

Verse of the Day

"[God] has committed to us the message of reconciliation. We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God." 2 Corinthians 5:19 and 20

take some time for introspection.

rock and sand

today, my message to the kids was recorded in Matthew 7:24-29

The Wise and Foolish Builders
24“Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. 26But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. 27The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.”
28When Jesus had finished saying these things, the crowds were amazed at his teaching, 29because he taught as one who had authority, and not as their teachers of the law.
I thought that it was a great passage to teach being an architecture student and the recent tsunami. building a house on a solid foundation versus sand. putting Jesus's words into practice is like building a house on rock.

what's on my desk at the current moment?
kareoke dvd's
plies of music cd's
reference letters, general letters, payment letters, receipts
transcripts
candy
markers, highlighters, knives, pens, pencils, erasers, calc
scale, clear and metal x2 rulers
post-it's everywhere
note cases, binder
folders upon folders
thesis model, study model
24 x 36 plan drawing of thesis building
tracing, bond, and vellum paper
huge 'phaidon atlas of contemporary arch', 'massive change' by bruce mau, 'office building' book
camera
recent episode LOST video tape
masking, clear, scotch, double-sided, and orange tape

SHOOT!
that's too much on a table!

to be organized

sleeping to 11:00 is becoming a habit.
i set my clock at 10:00 but sleep an extra hour.
i think it's almost time i set a third alarm clock and put it far far away...

as i read 'ordering your private word' it began to relate to me very much
symptoms of disorganization:
condition of car dirty on inside and outside - i cleaned inside not too long ago...outside...it's winter
become aware of a diminution in my self-esteem - yup
series of forgotten appointments, telephone messages to which i have failed to respond - no
i tend to invest my energies in unproductive tasks - definitely, writing this has got to be one..haha
feel poor about their work - occasionally
disorganized christians rarely enjoy intimacy with God - guilty as charged
quality of personal relationships - could be much better

although i don't really think these are all the traits of being disorganized, there are many more.

i know i am disorganized when my desk becomes a warzone, and post-it notes are everywhere
rite now it's quite chaotic...but i just took an hour yestday cleaning it

tell me something new

it was surprising that somebody parked in my spot today at the condo.
so told security...
he didn't do much...
or anything
so i parked in visitors
when i came back from school,
the car was still in the spot with no notice or warning that it would be towed.

mailed my second child away to vancouver today
feeling a bit worse after every package is sent.

o...and it's quite sad to see how much my english needs to improve.?
i no longer feel confident in editing papers

tsunami killed so many people, does anything matter?
one minute here, the other gone

here we go again

so it's over.
now let the good times begin.
tues and thurs OFF!
how nice is that....school, no school, school, no school, school, no school
as usual i'll be stuck at my U-shaped desk from tomoro onward...

o...bush sucks. after watching fahrenheit 9/11, he's quite the idiot.
so clueless...give me a break.

i got my second porfolio printed...it takes roughly two hours to get it printed and cut.
one more to go.

reminder 1: pick up transcripts
reminder 2: get letter from kap and zone
reminder 3: thank, agree, breathe