a reason i'm in architecture

"hard work never killed anybody, buy why take the chance?" charlie maccarthy

work didn't feel like work today. that's a good thing. i felt more like school. i was working on a group project that was due. a sample board of the interior finishes in a Moxie's restaurant. i'd just be glad to do anything that doesn't include me sitting at the computer on autoCAD wracking my brains out trying to draw the correct lines. the character of my other team member and leader (the 30 something female architect) is very comical and appears to be a very easy going person. i was relieved that i didn't have to work on the galleria project in london today, phew, really boring. that would include understanding and making sense of poorly reproduced hand-drawings and drawing them on the computer. the sample board was much more interesting. i was asked to photoshop the plans, if u saw my face, you would see me just light up. the program i like to work with most, and the results were rewarding. for once, i was asked for my opinion in the office, i was elated. she always asked me about the choices of material, colour, and arrangement. at that point i no longer felt that i was just trying to help her finish her project, it was partly mine too. and we were working to a deadline because it needed to be shipped at 6:00, and we were early, by 30 min. i'm glad everybody in the office is so willing to teach. and me, really eagar to learn. many things are remembered through actually applying. if everyday of work was like today, i'd quit school. but then sadly when i asked if there was anything else to do before i left, she told me that tomoro that i would be working on something boring, something to look forward to eh? not everyday of work can be so enjoyable, or else why would they need to pay me.

charlie: which do you think lasts longer in life, the good things or the bad things?
linus: good things last eight seconds...bad things last three weeks

yes, everybody

sometimes i lie awake at night and ask, "where have i gone wrong?" then a voice says to me, "this is going to take more than one night." Charlie Brown

last sunday's sermon did hit me hard. only know half the truth about christianity? God didn't only tell us that we should believe in Jesus, but that we must love everybody else, EVERYBODY, not just the people you want to. it hit me hard, for most of the week i took notice of the people around me, could i and would i act the same towards all these different people. i know for sure i want too, but there's this other part that says, can i really? but that's the other half of being a christian. Jesus replied to Peter three times, if you love me, then take care of my sheep. i did encounter somebody today, difficult for me to treat as my own brother, but i really tried. there were things that this person did that i didn't approve of. but then i was reminded not to judge because God is the only one who can judge. i am reminded from the Bible that goes i must first take out the log in my eye before i try to remove a spliter in somebody else's. how can i judge, when i have so many of my own things that can be judged and corrected myself. i take this in stride for i know i cannot love all the people at this moment. today, i have become friends with this person and even got a chance to share some gospel, i never would have thought!

"love is the reason behind everything God does"

shouldn't it be mine as well?

opening day 1

i haven't recorded my thoughts in a long time,
i'm sure there's much i would like to have recorded in the time that has past, but it is behind me.

my adventures at work
first week - impressed and facinated
second week - tired, but enjoying
third week - discovery and surprise

almost finished my third week of work, i'm quite pleased. one thing that makes me glad is that i had one month off before i found this job. i think to myself, if i knew that i would find a job, i would have used my month off much more wisely. the month of may seemed to pass within a blink. i have to say that at work i've learned much so far about CAD, office relationships, and office admin. as well, simple things as when to ask questions, appropriateness of doing various things at work. it's a great deal of observation to survive this job i think. people say things once, and sometimes i tune out, although i don't notice it myself, but i know i just keep nodding. a habit that must change. work and politics, i've been warned before, and i thought that only happened in large firms, but i was wrong. this firm is of 12 ppl including myself, and communication problems do arise. i've witnessed and yet to see the full outcome.

i feel i have no time now, a lot of it spent communting. almost 2 hrs daily and it sux.
i'm very glad that God brought me to this firm. i feel it was something really set up by a higher power. nothing was in my control. everything just seemed to click. i only pray that things could click more often.

another discovery that hit me hard was bad things do happen to good people, a fact i don't want to realize. the kindest cooworker of mine had his house robbed while he was working OT. i admire his calmness through the whole situation, and how he handles bad situations.

i've got much more to write, though i need to get sleep ready for another day in the "battle field" as my boss (mr architect) likes to put it...haha...