toss and turn

today was my last day at zeidler...
too bad...
it was good there...
i got along with people...
they knew who i was...
and now i had to leave...

people i saw more than i saw
more than anybody else
these four months

it was a good last day
leaving is always bittersweet...
definitely will miss people there

in the back of my head
i was very glad i don't have to commute
and sleep early wake early

then again i still have to deal
with another project going on
which is tough...
because a lot rests on my shoulders
and deals with situations i'm unfamiliar with...
learn as i go along though...

then again
i'm leaving soon
which is very bittersweet
augh...
this constant flurry of bittersweetness
is annoying
and hard to deal with
half the time i stare into nothingness
daydreaming...
thinking...
wondering...

it's been a great four months.

i can't help but want everything
to be going well for everybody
all the time.
something impossible i strive for.

i want to know
that everything is alright while i'm here
that everything will be alright when i'm gone.

i want to let you know that everything will.
i just hope i will be.