clarity

foundry model
simple clear response
this project has largely developed
over a three month period

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it's been a while
last day of term
finally...

i always think the next term would get easier
just like this term
it hasn't become any easier
1/3 way to the masters degree
not bad at all

on happiness
and how to maintain
and perhaps retain it
may take a while...
next post next post...

walls of the world

watching the news
while i was eating
insane
civilians in the hospital
lebanon and israel

i asked
who is right?
the response was nobody
disgusted

as i just finished reading a blog
somebody who is
as chinese canadian christian as i am
just as old as i am
taking sides
justifying the need for these attacks
disappointed

the next segment
taiwan testing it's defences
in preperation for an attack from china
swaths of planes, boats, tanks
firing like there is no tomorrow
demonstrating their power

i asked
why do i design buildings
if eventually they will fall
possibly blown up
my world revolves around buildings
and how i connect architecture to everything...
so sad.

beefing up of miliary force everywhere
arms racing ahead

being attacked?
attack back with everything you have?

afraid of being attacked?
stock up on defences to protect yourself?

not strong enough to protect yourself?
make good friends good allies?

what is the world coming to
or has been all along
how do you live in a war torn country?

as i watch children running into military helicopters
children lying cripple in hospital beds
and the unseen victims no longer of this world
breaks me
it seemed as though i just realized
what goes on around the world
outside my four walls

not again

so many reasons to be thankful
so many blessings that i can't repay
and i never would've made it here without you
sending angels to guide me on my way

you keep giving me joy
you keep giving me happiness
you keep giving me hope
you keep giving me everything i wish
you keep holding me up
when i'm about to fall
and if even all of that was not enough
you keep giving me love

i know that i'm not always easy
and i know i put you through some trying days
but in spite of all the worries that i gave you
you never let my angels get away

have i told you lately
how your love has saved me
it takes me to a place i've only dreamed
i'm so thankful lord
for sending me angels
to guide me from up above

how can i thank you
all the things you've done
you're the one who's blessed me with everything
you keep giving me love

brian littrell

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i must say sorry
for i have once again forgotten
to prioritize my life
i dread the things i miss out on

last week it was 'dried up and different'
this week is 'yellow and sickly'
augh...
i can't help but laugh
and at the same time think hard
at what i am doing
and once again i am reminded that this
has happened last year
my health went down
so bad i needed a doctor to tell me
to get more rest

come on...
two days in a row i miss going to the beach
and for what?

so called school work
no matter how hard i work
potentially i will end up with a slight
grade differential?

i know through you guys
he is reminding me once again
that this is only a 12 hour flight
which i work and prepare
for 24 hours

mix well

spare me some time to breathe
arr...

24 hours in a day
i work 15 on a regular basis
leaving 9 hous
which gives for about 5-7 hours of sleep
and 2-4 hours of eat...shower...cook...

it's strange walking and feeling dizzy
and knowing that collapse is always imminent

long day ahead
glad i got an hour break before crit presentation

hmm...the question of working too hard
always on my mind
i look at my work
there's always something that can be done better
the troubles of architecture
there are such small detailed things
to give attention too
it's all about scale
have to focus into the details
then draw yourself out and look at the bigger picture
the constant back and fourth between the two.

as i am reminded to get enough rest
eat well
and exercise
and throw a masters of archi into the mix
it doesn't mix so well

tomorrow will be a day of rest
reminded by a friend of mine
to always take a day off in the week
it make you function better the other days.

no angel no hero

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if i may
i wanted to tell you something
meant for everybody

we are all people
no greater no less
no better no worse

you and me
we are the same

anything i do or say
offends you
know that i didn't intend

if you need to turn away
turn away
if you need to judge
deliver if you must
i am less than prepared

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we are the poets
we are the dreamers
we are the soldiers
we are the screamers

we are the fallen to rise again
we are the lovers
we are the cynics
we are the hours
we are the minutes
we are all friends in the end

why be alive
if you don't follow your every dream
reach to heaven and stand for what you believe

we don't need wings to be angels
we don't need reasons to be right

your love makes us all better
that's who we really are
angels and heroes at heart

we are the givers
we are the receivers
we are confessors
we are believers
we are the strange familiar face

we are afraid and so we follow
we're underpaid so we borrow

we mine for tears
but much too late

why can't we open our hearts
open our minds
forgiving is easy
for you will come
if we open our eyes

we don't need to sleep to be dreamers
we don't need to have tears in our eyes

i know it seems easier to run and hide
bury your emotions deep in the night
it's worth the fight
just aim for the light

brian littrell

sweet sorrow

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we never know where god has hidden his streams
we see a large stone and have no idea that it covers
the source of a spring

we see a rocky area and never imagine
that it is hiding a fountain
god leads me into hard and difficult places
and it is there i realize i am where eternal streams abide
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parting is such sweet sorrow
great truth in this exclaimation written by shakespeare

i like life

me and my n
on canada day

amiable and melodious
where everything is bestowed
purple and pastoral

^^

that reminds me of you
haha...
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would you know my name
if i saw you in heaven
will it be the same
if i saw you in heaven
i must be strong
and carry on
because i know i don't belong
here in heaven

would you hold my hand
if i saw you in heaven
would you help me stand
if i saw you in heaven
i'll find my way
through night and day
because i know i just can't stay
here in heaven

time can bring you down
time can bend your knee
time can break your heart
have you begging please

beyond the door
there's peace i'm sure.
and i know there'll be no more
tears in heaven

eric clapton

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a slight release if i may

up to the rim
overflowing slightly

this term i'm not satisfied
with what i've accomplished
it's not over yet
projects with great potential
all unfinished except one
always crunch time
during the final month of term

always makes me
have to give up something
to do my work instead
look at it from a distance
and visualize the end result
then start work again

i like life
such an understatement