not myself

i was never like this...
in the state that i am in.
it's not good.
not good at all...
nights drag on...and on...
i have time to spend...unlike before...
so i start thinking and doing things that i don't usually do...
too much time thinking is bad right now.
the more i think, the more i worry,
like a snowball gaining speed...

i'm carrying heavy burdens.
but then again, i remember writing before,
that God doesn't give burdens to carry on your own.

if you have the will...
pray for me.