amidst a thought

i've just notice that whenever a new michael w smith cd comes out, i'm in quite a sad state. coincidence? maybe he just knows when i need his music, or maybe i run to his music when in dire need.
just as i run to God when i am in need, but i am changing...as people do.

talking to my friend led to some insight on myself...that i've changed. the older i get, the more i discouraged and disheartened i have become. the world is a dark place, five years ago the thought would have never entered my mind. i told him that i no longer listen to happy music, and i paused to wonder why. i remember making discs called 'happy songs' haha...how naive i see myself back then. but i would, without a doubt or second thought, return to being like how i was just a few years back. gotta keep looking forward.

quite the long day. too much thinking on mondays. think think think...and think fast...glad it's almost over...i could use some zzz's

now looking back to greek architecture for new inspiration for thesis...i hope it will lead somewhere.