努力 風箏

愛是無辜的風箏　拉著最在乎的人
情已逝　我還在　註定一個人流浪
愛是斷線的風箏　掙脫一開始的夢
黑暗中一步步的墜落紅塵　無法挽救的溫存
我是殘破的風箏　寧願在遙遠的天空
看你轉過身決定去實現你和他的承諾

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我也說過　對我　不要有太多的期望
可是　也不要低估我　我會繼續加油
繼續努力　繼續往前走
我不能夠說　我經過了很多
也不能夠說　以後的路會是怎樣

我要謝謝你

ever a good time?

things happen everyday with the consideration of time
today there have been so many...

is it ever a good time to get sick?
i thought about it and it's no...
in sickness you can't do much but rest
and get better in time.

travel plans...
planning future travel plans is really tough
right now because i don't know what i'll
be doing in the summer

how long can i go
when should i leave
when should i come back

talked about current time with when is the time
to study and do work
how do we allocate our time in one day
is there an appropriate balance

i'm very thankful this term
that i don't have a heavy workload
and i can sleep in for many days
definitely has helped in getting healthy

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right now i think i'm quite fortunate...
for things that haven't happened
for things that i don't have to concern myself with...
i mean...
so many things and events can take place
that if they were to happen
i wouldn't really know what to do...
i'm just glad right now
in this moment...
i sort of know what i'm doing
and i can handle the situations that i'm dealing with

bigger and more terrifying events lie ahead...
inevitable...
and i know for sure...
that i will be off guard for many of them.

unresolved

got this bad feeling of restlessness this moment
it's been building up

the feeling of unsatisfaction has gripped me whole
the loss of direction in most ways

i know i need to work
and work hard
just a month ago i couldn't care less
about how thesis turns out
as long as i passed

and now...
i have this feeling that i need to do it well
a surmounting pressure on myself
that this is my last chance

what happened.
why do i care

when i do something
anything
that i got to put my mind and heart to it
and do it well

i noticed that i don't usually participate
in things i'm not good at

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i think of doing things
that many times i don't do.

i wish sometimes i can help
that i have some comforting words to offer.

i'm a coward though.
i avoid when i know i should confront
i am silent when i know i should talk

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how will i be as an architect?
how many more years will it take?
3? 4?
the road is so long
and by the end of it...
i hope i would not have gone down the wrong path
take the easy way

there's no easy way of becoming an architect
but after
the choice is mine to make
on what kind of architect i become

even to think that i will become one someday
is distant and odd...
how draining...

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speaking of draining...
this cold i've caught is draining...

no motivation to do work
procrastinating my way through the days...

GET TO WORK!

it's gonna be one of those years of accomplishments
i can feel it...
just when i resolved to do otherwise...
augh.

always on your side

my yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
but every now and then you come to mind
cause you were always waiting
to be picked to play the game
but when your name was called
you found a place to hide
when you knew that i was always on your side

well everything was easy then
so sweet and innocent
but my demons and your angels reappeared
leaving all the traces of the man you thought i'd be
leaving you with no place left to go from here
leaving you so many questions all these years

but is there someplace far away
someplace where all is clear
easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
this isn't how it's really meant to be

well they say that love is in the air
but never is it clear
how to pull it close and make it stay
butterflies are free to fly
why do they fly away
and i'm left to carry on and wonder why
even through it all
i'm always on your side