one can dream

certainly not too much at work though.

how did we get to june already?
really?

wow.
sure doesn't feel like summer....

and as days continue to fly by because
these permit drawings
don't let up

notes on how to run a proper architecture firm

remember good design aesthetic is the primary goal
don't let administration...contracts...endless meetings
take any away

don't let hierarchy in the office take away
the confidence in people giving their opinion
because they should all be heard and considered

keep the communication constant between colleagues
talking in the office doesn't mean that things don't get done
they probably will get done faster
getting feedback and answered questions
unless it's constant chatter about nothing

the director can do the big important things
and the small not-so-important things

how to get things done
make sure project/competition teams
are small enough to manage themselves
and not get out of hand where team members are unclear
about their responsiblities
and before the meeting ends...
make sure something critical has been decided
meetings to set future meetings...no

and of course...
be the one who doesn't know it all

we chatter about the perfect office
how it would be better somewhere else
how our office can be improved....

how we're never satisified basically...
how the grass is neon green in that office down the street...

though there is plenty justifies the unsatisfaction...

well i dream
the office i start one day with the above traits....
got to quickly finish up those exams.

among the noise

times have been frustrating
as i persists and push against it
nothing seems to happen

i have always thought
i had an ability to understand people
no matter how blunt and rash
they may be
i have had a way of dealing with it
and eventually this behaviour ceases

have you ever been persistantly treated poorly
in an undeserving manner
in which people around you
cannot understand either?

i really want to sympathize with this person
yet her antagoning actions and words
and abusive illusionary power
fluster me beyond belief

it is difficult to move above and beyond it
when this is not an incident in the past
but many, persistant and fresh daily

this person
a coworker

____________________________________________


发觉这世界永远太少空间
因此花一天支配一切时间
发觉这世界永远太晒心机
因此花一天思索一切道理

消失太快 捉得到太少
因此花一天感觉一切是爱茫茫人海
或有几多漂泊与淹盖
人人寻找爱
或有几多争斗与比赛
越觉得剩低几多未变的爱

慢慢地合作新诗
静静地同床午睡
再发现岁月换来几次厌闷几多亲爱
有各样劫灾
和充满意外
因此我要努力继续能恋爱

慢慢地迈向听朝
静静地怀念昨日
再决定今天只要相信爱
叫皱纹散开 唤青春归来
因此我喜欢花一天感觉一切是爱

____________________________________________


as a couple of doors close
another two appear

one door closes with a trusted friend and mentor
i feel deceived
taken advantage
when i entrusted her a project

lessons learned early
with fewer implications
than to learn the lesson
further down the road

one door opened
back to school it led
with me on the opposite side
to what i am used to
taking the chair of guest critic

____________________________________________


it's been a while
to have the chance to sing
an english song at church
as being to cantonese service
with a purpose has now resolved itself
generously from above

with work again tomorrow
in light of economic downturns
i haven't much minded the effects of shortened hours
rather have taken it as an opportunity
to take it easy
and take on other tasks
sleeping more

____________________________________________

among the noise
i have let it go
i can't stop
and catch my breath
and look no futher
for happiness
i will not turn again

humility

i was asked at work 'am i mean?'
when you can ask that question
you probably are...

this morning someone at church
quickly got upset in the parking lot
for not following the rules of the one way traffic

after receiving a stern comment
with no love and forgiveness
without needing to explain myself
i replied with something positive
and i hope he had a moment of realization

i'm glad i read what i did last night below
_________________________________________

thank you for wanting...
how quickly i forget
what's important...

_________________________________________

he said that in our weakness
we are made stronger.
he said that in the kingdom of god
the first will be the last
and the last will be first.
he said that if someone asks you
to walk a mile with him
walk with him two.
he said to love your neighbour as yourself
but more importantly
love your enemies.
he said the humble will be exalted.
jesus said.

it's the opposite of what our culture is teaching
am i pursing what culture wants me to be
or the lifestyle of humility opposed
to the road more traveled

we crave being right
it's the best feeling in the world
we have to be first
we have to win
we lie to be right
we end relationships to be right
we go to war to be right

we spend most of our time trying to mold
others into what we want
we need to appreciate the differences
each person can bring